Born Confused

Ever heard of people that are never happy no matter what..hmmm...yes that's me and can't do anything about it.

Things are suppose to go well, actually they probably are but I'm not able to enjoy any of it! F it's frustrating to be like myself yet I can't help it but be miserable. I drive myself on this dark road, I'm at the wheel but can't control where I'm headed, like driving thinking oh i'm gona crash now i'm gona crash now! I think that I think way too much, definately more than needed.

Ah F it, no point in writing all this crap down, won't help my case.

Everything is good, cheers!

Saturday I went to an Indian college show which was pretty good, then we went to the after-party which was also pretty good, bhangra was fun! But when I got home (at 3am) my parents were waiting for me in the living room, i was like shit! Why are u guys still up so late...and then ofcourse the typical parent talk which I kinda didn't want so I just went to my room....and the next morning my dad collects a parking ticket from my windshield, so when i work up i was like shit! (agian!) it's like yeah make it even worse! So I got my first ticket, I was glad no points were taken off cause I could have my license suspended cause it's a probatory license, for 2 years or until u r 25.

I asked my mum how come dad was still up, she's like well we got home at 1am, we thought u'd be back by then but u weren't and u didnt' pick up ur phone...n e how so dad was mad that morning and mom was like yeah you've been coming home so late these days and going out too much....I tried to explain it to her that now it is the time and all....and like it's not like I lie to you guys...my parents understand all this but you know I guess it's the culture that they can't abandon....I don't know so now my mum's like you can't go out, I think she meant stay out late. But parent's r not mad now.

On the other had my friends that were with me had a even worse situation....hope their parents don't hate me or blame it on me. Its like brown will be always brown. Parents say oh you have all your life to do these things...well no we don't! u think when I get married or have kids i'm going to be going out to clubs! lol


The Friday I went out with another friend, we had alot of catching up to do so that was fun.

Oh my vacation got approved so I'll be going to India in January for 3 weeks, yay!! That's going to rock, really looking forward! The main reason is to go see my grand-parents and then my cousin's getting married, yay! My mum wants me to meet some guys and I was like ehhh no! but then i'm like yeah sure u can try it won't work! so we'll see how it goes...

I'm coming down with a cold now, ewwww hate it!

I haven't updated in the longest time ever, if you ask me, the real reason is pure laziness, yes i'm a freakin lazy ass! and to a certain extend I feel that I've lost the touch of writing properly, I almost feel illeterate it's not even funny. I use to write poems, I can't even do that right n e more, it all sounds crap and I have no creativity or imagination, at least that's how it feels if not the case.

So much has happended since my last entry that I don't even know where to begin...I'll only sum up quickly for those who are interested if not skip the crap and read the last 2 lines.

So since I bought my car I've been on a roll, I've been going out so much more and that too coming home late in the morning at times, which I was never allowed before, actually even know I don't think my parents like it much but oh well that's how it is and is going to be. They trust me and I know I will never break their trust towards me, I know myself so there is nothing to fear for that issue.

I went to a dandiya/garba party, well there was bhangra and a lot of it and ppl that know me know that bhangra is THE music for dance! You know it's funny how this party happend, I was downtown with a niluja to meet another friend later that evening, and then we were just chillin at the coffee shop that I thought mabye I should call this girl I met on this orkut site since she gave me her number and wanted to meet (Ok i know it sounds gay but nothing like that i'm straight, she was just a friend, well going to be, lol) so niluja's like yeah call her we r not doing n e thing n e how, so I called her and she was like yeah I'm going to this party, u wanna come, so I said yeah why not, we met with her n her friends and went there. It was my first time trying dandiya, well it was cool, I enjoyed it but for the rest of the night there was bhangra and hindi music, now that's what i'm talking about!! We met quite a few ppl there, see I like meeting new ppl and that too of my age since now that I'm working I don't get to meet ppl my age. We left there at around 2:30am, I dropped of niluja and picked up my brother from this place and we got home around 3:30am.

I went to Boston for 3 days with my work collegue and my manager, it was work related, graphic designers' global meeting. Our company is getting so cheap that we had to travel by voyageur bus but honestly it was a nice ride, took us only 7hours. Our hotel was so chic, well afterall Marriott is one of the best hotels! My room was awesome though it was a room for handicaps! LMAO it was too funny, I was like, to my collegue, they got mixed up and switched our rooms. There was a handicap sign on the door though there was nothing handicap about the room so I didnt' want to create a fuss, I like my room. So the first night we met up with the creative director of the comapny in boston and the graphic designer from scotland facility and went out for supper. The rest of days there, we had a meeting all day long, basically it was just discussing global projects and issues and things...we would have lunch over discussion and at the end of day they would take us out for supper and we would get back to the hotel room around 9-10... Days were a bit charged but I liked the whole trip, was a great fun experience. Last night there, I went for a couple of drinks with the graphic designer from scotland, it was fun to just talk and relax. The end of the night I think I was a bit tipsy because we had couple of drinks and shots at diner with the rest of the gang but I insist I was not drunk. Then at midnight I called my collegue's room and wished him happy b'day, no it was not his b'day. LOL

Last to last weekend, I went to a garba/dandiya guju party, it was the last of their season's. It was alright not as fun as the previous one but this one was on a larger scale as there were about 300ppl there, i think! There was suppose to be bhangra at the end but they never had n e, or whatever they did was NOT bhangra! So my friend and I left around 2am. I had fun though.

Last Thursday I went out for Johanne's b'day, it was funnnn, we goofed so much, oh gosh it felt good!

And this past weekend my brother and I drove down to Toronto. Weather was crappy though we both enjoyed it so much, just chilling, watching movies together at home, we get along very well with our cousins though they are older than us, one of them married with 2 kids. Bhabi is cool too, we talk about everything and anything with them. We got back home on Sunday evening.

I've also seen couple of movies lately, it's funny I thought I was suppose to meet my friend at 7:30 but at 7 she calls and like where are you and I'm like I'm getting my nails done, LMAO she cracked up like wtf i'm waiting for you here and u r getting ur nails done! LOL so we missed the movie as it was starting at 7 so instead we watched Running with siccors(however u spell it!) it was an akwardly strange movie but ok, I was laughing where it was suppose to be serious, i'm bad i know but couldn't help it, friend was embarrased as I was the only one laughing!

The latest one I saw is BORAT, that is the stupidest movie i've ever seen but freakin hilarious!!!!! You're like how dumb can they be yet you are craking up! The theather was like packed from the last to the front row, every single seat!

Oh and I went to see the hindi movie DON, it was pretty good if you don't compare it to the original, I'd have to see it again to comment further as I can't say how much I liked it.

I know I had said i'll only sum up but eh what could you do, I can't stop once I start and trust me this is a quick version of all i could have written!

And oh I've been trying to maintain my weight but it's sooo hard, I just love food and being lazy. Well I've almost lost all what i had gained back so this is good, at least. If I can't loose more I shouldn't gain more either, that's the deal for now, I need to focus and force myself to behave in that sense.

And another note, my mum's going to India next month for my cousin's wedding. I was suppose to go too but then I can't really afford it at the moment but u know what unless you make up your mind you'll never be able to go and that time will never come back, so I've discussed it with my collegue and i will ask my manager if I could get 3 weeks off in January, if so I'm going! One of the main reasons is my grand-parents, I just want to go spend some time with them. Lets hope everything works out well and that I can go.

Ok now I need to go to bed, my sleeping timings are messed up, really and I tell you never take evening naps!!!!

I forgot to mention that my mum had said yes to my aunt to send pictures of this guy she suggested for me, so we recieved the pictures last week, when I first saw I cracked up not at the pictures but just the whole fact of someone sending pictures like this for marriage purposes even though I know it is how it works in India but I'm still new to this happening it with me! I felt bad as I thought it was insulting the guy since my answer was going to be "no" no matter what because, first, I don't want to get married to someone living in India and then just by looking at pictures or meeting 1 or 2 times, i mean it's gotta take more time to see how things would work connect between both.... Poor guy spends his money, sends his pictures with hopes and all, I really feel bad here laughing over his pictures (not because of his look or n e thing, he's just an normal person and looks don't really matter that much n e how.)

So that day when I got home my younger brother had showcased the pictures on the living room table and he was crackin up as soon as I got in the house!!! This whole marriage thing is still new to us kids and we kind of find it embarassing but funny!!

My mum called my aunt back to tell her that my daughter (me) don't want to say yes or no just by looking at the pictures...aunt is very understanding and she agrees..so now my mum said I would meet this guy when I go to India (supposely this winter) LOL Ok honestly I would not mind meeting him but no promises and I'm not looking for marriage to start of.... I always wanted an arrange marriage but now that it's kinda time I'm backing out because I want to get to know the person very well before stepping into any relationship.................ahhhhhhhh.

No more going out for me I really need to save my money but to start off spending wisely. I got a brand new car last week :D yes yes it's my first, it's a honda civic ex 2006, blue with beige interior, it's a hot ride i tell u! Then I got new HOT "D&G" glasses, they r smokin hot and give me a nice look, a different style. And my new hairstyle, well just layers, lenght is up to my shoulders, a bit longer. Besides this major chunk of spending I've shopped quite a bit since I needed a new wardrobe after loosing all that weight, yes I've lost 35lbs now!

With all these things I'm like a new person.

I'm looking for a part-time job on the weekends, haven't start applying yet but will do as I need some extra cash.

So much has happened since my last update yet back to the same old routine nowadays! There are honestly no words to describe my trip to California, I had the time of my life, all the cousins had so much fun teasing each other, everyone had someone others will tease you with, like me it was this guy which I had only said was good looking but ofcourse cousins had to blow this comment out of proportion and on every single occasion tease me...but it was good, well fun! We all made fun of each other linking this one with this and all...wow too good to last...every one cried when they had to leave! And I cried for like 3 weeks when we came back! Infact it felt a bit akward crying for this but when I spoke with others it was like oh ok good I'm not the only one crying like a baby!

I had started a LJ entry but never finished it because I thought no words could describe how I really felt about the whole trip, the wedding and all, here's what I had started writing when i got back:

"I got back from my trip past Sunday. Ok to start off, it was a lifetime experience, all the cousins, family, sleepless nights, goofing around, leg pulling, getting drunk, card games, chilling... Nothing beats being with cousins and stuff, I’d pay anything to live that time again and actually make some changes to the best because I got sick during the wedding time (everyone got sick one after another) I didn’t eat anything but anything for 2 days and due to this I was feeling down and somewhat depressed. And my brother told everyone that I was going through my mood swings!

I looked like a freak on the whole wedding, all my freaking clothes were hanging on me cause they got so loose on me! And my hair was a mess, ppl told me not to straighten them on the engagement party and that curly looked better but look at those pictures!!! I'm not photogenic at all, really and it makes me feel like I looked like an idiot!"

Just to add a bit more, the wedding was so beautiful, everything went well. Except that I looked like a freak, for real! And there is nothing that can make me change my views on my own self, it's rather sad I think so low of myself maybe because...nevermind.

So after California, my younger brother and I went to New Jersey to see my cousin and his wife, at that point we didn't want to go, more like we didn't want to leave California but after all New Jersey ended up being so real fun! They took us to New York City, visited it for 2 days, we took those tour buses, visited the main attractions, it was so much fun and did quite a bit of shopping buying those fake but quite close to real Louis Vuitton bags, Chanel sunglasses, DG sunglasses and other crap like that, lol!

And now after my cousin's wedding everyone is after me since I'm the second oldest girl on my mum's side. My uncles and aunts were like ok we are all going to montreal next summer for neha's wedding. My parents are now getting serious about this matter and I'm like no way I'll let you know when I find someone! They are actually fine if I find someone on my own (I don't think I'll ever be able to find someone on my own, it's rather sad, nothing good like that has ever happened to me!) but my parents' search is still going on...and aunts actually call with proposals, well more of like oh there is this nice boy from a good family...u know the usual crap! I've told my parents I do not want to marry someone who's living in India but they couldn't care less, they are like but there's nothing wrong in seeing, u never know it might work..again the usual crap. And just last week my brother told me that my mum told my aunt to send a picture of this boy she was suggesting, she was like yah send us his picture...the worst part is she doesn't even tell me about these things, my brother told me! I just feel bad for the guy it's like getting his hopes up where as I already know what my answer will be: NO. And then my brother was teasing me like ok neha yah this pose is good, hold on let me grab the camera to take your picture to send it to that boy! LOL it's funny actually. See I don't mind arranged marriages since they r not forced in my case but I would like to get to konw the person before engaging into any relationship. Ok after all this crap, I don't see myself getting married...

I've lost quite a bit, ppl have actually been crazy about it like oh wow u lost so much weight and I'm like ya it's been 6 months that I've been on on/off diet and exercising, so when you think about it 30 pounds in 6 months is not that much!!! Although it's a start, I need to maintain a balanced diet and exercise routine which I'm not and I'm going to pay big time if I don't and I refuse to go back to how I was so I will force myself. And speaking of which I ate sooo much this weekend, it was like I ate more than I ate in the past couple of months, f***! I think I gained like 10 pounds only this weekend! But good thing tomorrow is Monday fast so that will help me get on track!

And you know since I got back from my trip, I've given up meat, if you ask me the reason, I got none, it was like an inner feeling that told me to do so (I know it may sound gay but that's how it was). I'm vegeretain now but to tell the truth I miss it a bit like when I go out there is not as much variety left. I was a big chicken eater so it's a bit hard but it's been about a month since I've had non-veg and it hasn't been THAT bad. Lets see for how long I can be vegeterian.

I have some plans in the air for now, like going to India this January and Europe on my way back, and all us cousins are thinking or a reunion this summer in Norway, moving out in another city, for now I can only think as far (which is not far) as Toronto but only time will tell. But I've told my parents I want to move out sometime next year and that on my own. There is so much going on in my mind but don't know in which direction the wind will blow, only time will tell.

Life is in its dullest moments right now, same old routine, nothing exciting, besides it's always been like that for me. I know I'm exxagerating but it's true to somepoint. I do go out with friends (often enough, chill, fight with family, cry) but nothing out of ordinary. But let me tell you I've been maxing out my credit card! SHIT it's all going to hit me at the same time, infact it has started already. I'm living paycheck by paycheck, it's quite sad actually. Been to Toronto twice, was great fun, love meeting family and seeing some eye candies, lol. And enjoying actually loving driving, it rocks but I seriously need an independant car for myself.

My trip is coming up, woaw awesome! It's next Friday :D Really looking forward, I still need to shop a bit but at least i got all my suits ready. My mummy wants me to wear a sari but can u imagine me with a sari, euuuh no way! I've never worn one and never will, well don't know but no as of yet.

I don't know if meeting ppl online is such a good idea, no I'm not meeting n e one but just a thought occured after talking to some ppl online.

Weather lately has been insaine, up to 40 oC with humidity, well it's summer so I'm not complaining as long as you keep the Ice Caps and smoothies coming! lol and oh ice cream too. and some smirn off will do as well ;)

Ok I think i've doozed off a little too long from LJ, so much yet nothing "wow" has happened. One major thing, I got my license (past monday)!!! I was so freaking nervous for the road test but I passed and passing it in first shot is something, I tell u! Most ppl fail the first time so I'm proud of myself! I've been driving alone since, love it!

Went to Toronto past weekend, was awesome, went to 2 parties and this dude was talking my pictures, I was like I don't even know you but he was the photographer, not a real one just some relative of theirs. I was like no not me I'm not photogenic and he goes well it depends who takes ur pictures! lol it was rather funny! Did alot of Bhangra, loved it! When I hear music, especially apna punjabi music, oh boy you can't hold me down! lol.

Been going out to alot to movies lately, have seen Faana (alright movie), Phir Hera Pheri(hilarous!), Krrish (was good), Fast n Furious Tokyo Drift (was good).

Have been on on/off dieting and it had helped me loose a lot of weight in the past 4 months but I have a long way to go... The good thing right now is that it's noticible and the compliments are the best boost.

I finally got the suit I ordered online, it was coming all the way from Banglore. The site is renukasilks.com so anyone if you need indian clothes this site is reliable.

This weekend was a Movie fair, watched so many...

Friday went to see X-Men, movie was really good despite the fact that I was falling asleep, but that was only becase we went to the late show.

Then Hindi movies:

Pyare Mohan - Funny
Tom, Dick and Harry - Funny
Darna Zaroori hai - Not that scary
Ankahee - Started watching it not done yet

And last night went to see Fanaa, I really liked it. I would say girls would like this movie better than guys, saying this because both my brothers thought it was kind of boring.

I had a driving lesson on Sunday which went well, I need to practice more, especially my parking, gosh I want to pass the test in the first shot, I really need to.

Besides all this not much of the weekend.

I went to Toronto a week ago, it was the perfect timing since I met my "mama ji and mami ji" that came from UK, they wouldn't of had the time to come to Montreal. Everything went well in Toronto and I love it there!

This past Saturday around 2:30pm I found out that Shaan, the singer, the host from Sa re ga ma pa tv show was performing in Montreal at 6:30 that same day, I was pissed I didn't know in advance so n e how I get home, called up the guy who was selling the tickets to ask him I could get tickets at the door, I asked my brother if he wanted to go with me and after a long struggle he agreed at the last minute so we took the bus and then the metro, from the metro we had to take a bus but by the time we go out of the metro it was like 6:15 so I told my brother screw this and lets go see a Fanaa instead. We were still debating if it was worth trying to find that palce since I had to get there at 6 to try to get the tickets. But then I saw this guy I know, I asked him if he was going to the show, he was. He didn't know where that place was either, we walked for like 25-30mins. While we were walking the guy introduces himself and I was like we know each other already, ha ha, he was oh right I didn't recognize you with ur sunglasses, it was funny and I think it was partially because I've lost some weight :D Anyhow then after more walk we saw some brown ppl in a car trying to figure out where they were going, we asked them if they were going to the show and they were so we hopped in their car and together we tried to find that place, which we finally did, thank God! It was like past 7 by the time we got there and at our surprise ppl were still trying to get in, so we squezed in and luckly got the last 45$ tickets. The show started so late like around 8 and ended up like around 12. Show was really good, he's such a good singer, I love him, I wish I could of met him or seen him from closer but oh well at least I went, I shouldn't complain.

My elder brother came to pick us up :D

That was the highlight of the weekend.

Sunday we had ppl over, we were busy with that and because of them we couldn't go see Fanaa! Man I want to see this movie so bad.

And it was so flippen humide and hot last night that I went to sleep in the basement :D

Oh I got a haircut on Thursday, hair is shorter and layered now, it look nice when it's straight :) I've gotten so many compliments and the bit of weight I lost helps alot :)

YAY! The Hippies won the Amazing Race last night, they won't a million dollar!! I was so happy!! Felt a little bad for Eric n Jeremy because they were always or almost always first till then but have been mean so you pay for it.

I'm going to Toronto tomorrow after work, this time going on my own, I like long drives and those buses are very comfortable. Won't be staying the whole weekend, coming back on sat afternoon or sunday morning. The reason why I have to come back earlier than thought is because the cousins I'm going to see, well they have to bring my "mama ji and mami ji" (parent's cousin brother and wife)to Montreal on Sunday, they came to Toronto from the UK and want to come see us. Another and main reason why I'm going there is for my second treatment of lazer hair removal(no comments or questions!), it's awesome, no pain and it works so well.

My driving going good but I don't have any other appointments booked, should do that soon just to be safe, I still got 5 hours practice before I could pass my road test.

This week diet is bad, very bad so hopefully next week it will be better, I am doing pretty well though, could be better but oh well. I've lost some weight till now more than I expected so it's good and I should maintain the diet for further good results.

Gotta check this video out, freakin hilarious!

The Ladoo Shop

So I was worrying about having to take the cab all week but luckly I mentioned that to someone I know who works in the same company and she said she has a friend that lives in the same area as I do so she called him and he called me back and he's giving me lifts in the morning this week :D (except Friday, he's off) It's really nice of him and also he said he has to do a little detour to come pick me up, so I really appreciate it. Yesterday we talked like which dept. you work in and stuff like that but today it was like ooh what do I say, I was trying to think of things to talk about but didn't know what to say since we don't know each other, it just felt akward.

My straightner is rocking!  I'm so impressed and it's like WOW!  in 20 minutes hair is perfect, like perfect straight and you know my hair is freaking long!  Few ppl told me I should get a hair cut, I think I should because I loose alot of hair and when it's shorter I loose less.

This weekend, ok no make that this past week and this weekend I've been pigging out and now I need to control myself and get back to my diet process becase I want to maintain what I've lost and ofcourse loose more, I have a long way to go...

Today had another driving class, it went pretty well, I learnt parrallel parking, it was good.  I need to practice on the high-way now, like changing lanes and keeping a good speed for high-way.

Kim ( sent me this software that I can use with my razor phone to upload all my pictures on to the pc, charge my phone through my pc and add my own ringtones and alot more, it's really soo cool.  Sorry for the trouble I've caused getting this file and thanks again dear.

I'm loving my dish, it's soo cool to be able to watch all these shows on TV, all about bollywood and stuff, I missed it alot and now I bet I''ll be hooked on TV again.  Last time we had the dish, my brothers n I were always fighting over what we wanted to watch, I always want to watch hindi channels, younger brother elgish channels, and elder brother, well I still dont' knwo what he wants, a mix i guess and oh yah punjabi videos, I like those too :)

And tomorrow back to work, ahh never feel like going, especially on mondays!  And I have no lift this whole week so I might have to take the cab this whole week, which really, but really sucks and alot of money spent!

(Last night I talked to my grand-parents in India and that made me wanna cry because I want to go see them, they are currently living alone and hearing their voice, the anxiety to see us, talk to us made me cry.)  I'm planning on going to India this winter.

Today after work I went out with Johanne, first at fairview, I bought a pair of 3/4 pants (didn't try them because there was a line-up. And guess what? they don't fit me! arrgg have to go exchange or return, like always, oh gosh!) Then we went to Scores, yuummy chicken! We took the salad bar which already filled me up even before the main meal, gosh I was stuffed even if I got the rest packed. After supper we came back to fairview to get some "jujubes" well jelly beans candies and shit like that, i spent 10$ of candies, wow what a waste! Then I went to this coiffeur shop where I got a hair straightner which cost me 120+tax, oh gosh so much spending today! And I got this product which is suppose to protect my hair from the heat but when I got home I noticed the TESTER sticker on it, wtf, she gave me the tester bottle! In total I spent 160$ on hair stuff! Ohh it feels good to shop :D Visa rocks (until u get the bill!)

I got this new mousse last week and surprisingly it works really well in my hair (curly n frizzy hair!) It is John Frieda's Frizz-Ease Corrective Styling Mousse (Curl Reviver) if n e one's interested. There's so many things I've tried in my hair and nothing really worked the way I wanted it to so it felt good to see some positive results!

Oh we finally got our Dish back, well we had to purchase a new machine but now FINALLY all chanels r working!! YAY hopefully no more downloads and I'll be able to catch them on TV!

Today was a very stressful day at work for everyone since today was the day of the big layoff, I actuall came out safe but my colleague, more a good friend, got laid off. It was very sad to see her go, not fair. But apparently everyone who got out today got a good package so at least that was good. Now it will be weird to not see her at work...

Last night I went out with friends, for my b'day. We went downtown, first eat at 3 Amigos, mexican restaurant. Food was good although I didn't enjoy much of my plate, maybe because I was already full with the appetizer.  We all decieded to go with non-virgin drinks, I had mango-strawberry pina colada, yuuuuum it was goood, couldn't taste the alchool though. My friends told our waiter it was my b'day so they sang happy b'day for me; they bring you a piece of cake and put a sombrero on ur head and sing and everyone who's sitting beside you sing along, so that was funnn.  (Some waiters r quite good looking!)

Then we went bowling, well the bowling ailes were all taken so I put my name on the waiting list and then we got a pool table but I didn't play at all since I don't know how to play pool! So we just goofed around and chatted and full "masti" (we went crazy). I then had a Smirnoff ice, I love that stuff!

So finally we were able to get a bowling aile, and guess what we got the VIP aile, yay! so we played, fooled around alot more :D Then I had another smirnoff which I shared with Johanne :D Oh I really love Smirn off! I came 3rd in the bowling game, not bad I think.

After the game we went to second cup for some coffeeee, don't even know what I had but it was tasty, ymmm with whipping cream n caramel, oh evil, damn good! 

My friends kept on laughing at me saying I was drunk but really I don't think I was ( I was laughing alot and joking but no), maybe a little tipsy but not drunk! :P And no I don't think I was, it's not like I drank so much, and I don't drink that often.

Then we headed back, took the metro and the bus and then Tracy(misake) was nice enough to drive me home :D Thanks Tracy.   I got home earlier than I thought I would, hmm it was about 10 past midnight.

So yes that was an awesome evening, really enjoyed myself!

And today, in the morning I went out with my brother to buy some stuff here n there.  In the after noon we got 2 families over, laughed and joked...  I cut the cake, had some good snack (Tikki-sholay) and then we had a BBQ, yummy chicken!!!  And then no one was hungry for real supper, oh well.  Too bad it was a Sunday, ppl had to leave earlier because everyone has work tomorrow.

So this weekend was goooood :D  But I do feel a little old, ahhhh...

This weekend was kind of boring. But the weekend before we went to Toronto, had a really good time, I love being with family. Went to actual Niagara Falls after soo long, past summer we instead hanged out at the clifton hill which is a "night life" street, full of lights, music, people, it's just fun to walk around there, visit differnt shops and museums and fun games, awesome place! I will post some pictures later.

I had my first driving lesson on Sat, it went pretty well. The instructor arrived with the shittest car ever and with no sign on it saying it was a driving school auto, I was like WTF but who cares I just need to do my 12 hours practice and go pass the test. The instructor said I was very good, well I have been driving with my dad and brother a bit maybe that's why I was good for first lesson. I need to learn how to park properly (forward and backward), including parallel parking which they make u do on the test and I can't reverse the car quickly, I need time to think in which way to turn the steering...fudge I feel retatred sometimes! I just need alot of practice with these things...

On Saturday I went to bed at 4:30am (don't ask me what I was doing! lol I was just chatting, surfin, music) so yah when I was in bed I could hear the morning birds outside, it was actually funny!


Now another week at work...lalala no comments but I tell you it's fun being able to sleep in!

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Tonight after work I am going out for dinner with colleagues, it should be fun but don't know why I don't really feel like going....don't know if I will go anymore :S

Thursday afternoon we are going to Toronto, brothers aren't going though. Long drive will be nice, I love those :D And ofcourse it will be nice to see ppl there too :D We will come back on Monday I think, the only thing I'm going to really miss is my PC (not being mean to my brothers). LOL So for this trip I am taking Thursday afternoon off and Monday off, Friday is already a holiday. wow 4 days n a half of vacation, pretty darn good considering the last time I took time off was beginning of Jan when I was sick and since we've only had one holiday which was in February so it is quite far.

Out of context, doesn't it REALLY suck that your hair isn't straight even when u've spent an hour on it straightened it! It pisses me! I think I'm going to cut my hair up to my shoulders, well to be precise a little longer than the shoulders. Right now they are a little longer than my mid-back. I think we loose more hair when it's longer. But since my hair is curly it will look stupid if it's too short as I can't straighten them everyday!

P.S. Karan is going back to India on the 14th, nooo I'm going to miss chatting with him in Punjabi!!!